Toward the inward Spiral

A Vision B, 66

In A Vision (1937) the Yeatses presented the above image by Edmund Dulacís, which depicts the 28 Masions of the Moon. Following a series of readings today I found the Tarot of ‘the Moon’ (18th Key) came to strong prominence reminding me of this image from A Vision which explores the Yeatses concept of the widening gyre and energy.

When I decided to engage with a cleansing period I noticed and pointed it out in my last blog post of the inward spiral matching to the cycles of the Wheel of the Year I was reminded of this process today in the readings which asked if I should commit to reading publicly at a charity, holistic day this Sunday.

The reading pointed toward my journey inward as a source of continued strength and inner fortitude, while looking into my studies as a source of creativity.

This will be a very interesting journey and I have no idea what I will discover about myself or within myself. Where I will ‘go’ or how exactly I will interact with this process. It is frightening and thrilling at the same time as I have creative mind that has been suppressed over the last few years as other projects and ideas took precedence.

Inward Spiral…

A vision borne, seek thy voice,
A desire for Life to rejoice,
A light to guide thyself to inner wisdom,
Balanced through and beyond Christendom.
Son of Water, Daughter of Water,
Guide me to the Magna Mater,
Muin – the path of my voice,
Ibn, am I, of Mother Earth.
Hidden Mysteries, kept from sight,
Journey forth; purging plight,
Many roads – fear not the travel along the Path, 
For weeds choke the Untrodden Way.
– Níall MacSiurtáin (06/09/2012)

Announcement: September 2012

Hi folks,

This blog has been rather quiet of late and for that I apologise. I’ve needed to focus on myself somewhat in terms of the GD practices. I’ve also been hard at work with blog posts for Fear-Draiochta where I can. With those blog posts going so well I wanted to make a few short announcements about the pacing of posts for Oibre-Mhór. Basically they’ll be slow… very slow! lol Here’s why:

Academic Study:

I will be Graduating tomorrow under the watchful gaze of the Blue (Belewe) Moon.

I’ve been accepted to a Masters by Research in English which allows me to research Yeats and the Golden Dawn. I’ll be joining the illustrious ranks of Kathleen Raine, George Mills-Harper, Margaret Mills-Harper (who will be my MA Supervisor to boot!) and many more by journeying through Yeats’ life and works to contextualise his esoteric practices in terms of his literary works.

During the summer I have been prepping for a new blog on this very subject. Hopefully it will be more academic and topic orientated than my blogspot accounts. I will link to this NEW blog at a later stage and make an announcement here so that GD magicians and scholars may follow the blog and updates and input freely if they so wish.

General Round-Up:

The Belewe Moon marks a momentous occasion in my life with the culmination of six years of hard work, but being the proverbial túathaid (witch/magician) I am I elect to see it as part of a greater whole. This year marked a lot learning curves in terms of my self-identity within the Golden Dawn system and beyond it.

  • Imbolc: In February I made the decision in the presence of my brothers and sisters to pursue an MA by research in Yeats and the Golden Dawn. The idea had been mulling over in my mind for the previous two years but lacking an avenue to manifest. Here it did so as I’m far from one who’d wish to place Yeats as some sort of God of the G:.D:. but have felt I could bring a unique perspective to Yeatsian studies.
  • Bealtaine: Was traumatic as I was caught in the energies of Bealtaine which frankly anyone who’s done the research will attest is a time of heated discussions in Irish traditions. Its really about proclamations of ownership and disputes. For me; friends fell out and forced me to choose between the two. As my personal truth I feel that one side of this despute manipulated the situation in a very distasteful manner, which did affected my occult studies as well as my mundane studies. It would take time to sort through the aftermath of these ‘games’.
  • Summer Solstice: Before the Solstice even hit (July 8, 2012) I was issued with a notice that I was no longer a member of the newly formed, Ancient and Honourable Order of the Golden Dawn (AHOGD) Dublin Temple, nevermind a co-Chief. AHOGD was formed (ahem) following the Dublin Temple’s split from MOAA. The decision of my former co-Cheifs followed many interpersonal problems between myself and them. I won’t lie I perceived some tensions building but I was determined to focus on college work, so when the notice came I could see the situation as being as irreconcilable so I accepted their decision hoping to retain the friendship (or what was left of it) when the unthinkable happened. They forwarded a scathing and false email to the membership defaming me and breaking a contract I’d established as a paying member (when you pay dues its a legal contract). Naturally I was and am very angry about this, however, I have decided that I will follow a period of cleansing for 6 months to detox my system from these events.

These are people I was friends with and felt comfortable establishing a Temple egregore with. I am endeavouring to release with Light and Compassion.

Following this baffling series of events, I had a very informative Ogham reading from a learned friend, who made tea and offered me a chance to experience her growing Labyrinth which consists of a two circles joined by a narrow pathway the first circles a reflective pool and the second a high place – perfection! The reading reminded me of strengths learned from before and a detachment from wisdom but that the situation was very much about the honour-price (and my honour was feeling bruised especially if my ego felt like it’d been pounded by a sledgehammer and ground to dust) as I’d accepted my former co-Chiefs’ judgement to expel me so why the assault?

  • Lughnasadh: This festival calls for a time of peace and to place disputes on hiatus for a time in the Irish cycle of the Year. So with this in mind I went to visit friends in a local Grove and played games and had fun. It was just what the doctor ordered. During this month I spoke to many a learn’d person on things troubling me and came to a moment of personal gnosis. This moment made me realise that I had choices and I was in a much more powerful position than I’d realised (my friend’s Ogham reading on a ‘third-of-armament’ being validated here once more). Unconsciously I’d been defining my magical practices by those whom I’d met not by myself and so I need to look to the system of the Golden Dawn without the personalities and personas which take charge. If I want to be the self-sufficient magician I had set for myself this is how it will have to go forward.
  • Autumnal Equinox – Winter Solstice: Period of introspection and focus on my academic research which is set to be very intense. I have denied myself the chance to pursue this for long enough and I refuse to let my own issues deprive me of this goal. The aim is to facilitate the cleansing period and to re-discover my personal motivations for being part of the Golden Dawn system. By Spring 2013 (Imbolc) I hope to have completed the six months cleansing and simultaneously will have grounded myself in my Path as well as settled in to my academic work.

Departure from the Dublin Temple:

With my departure from the Dublin Temple duly announced I would like to make the request that bloggers and readers alike take the time to consider that this isn’t as amicable as I would like (I’m confident the general membership feels the same way) and so I would ask you to bare in mind that this blog post accounts for ONLY my personal experiences of the situation and others undoubtedly have theirs.

For me this has been a series of harsh lessons, most of which I have to fully engage with. I would like to thank those who have offered their support and love throughout this period of time.

Sámae ocus soillse, Abhainn

Topic ideas for Fear-Draiochta blog?

Hey folks,

I’m so sorry been off the blogosphere for so long. Life dramas and work committments. What I hope to do come Samhain (October) is begin a new series of writings for the Phases of the Moon and the Sabbats. I’m in final year of college so will be kept very busy but I hope that people will indulge me.
If theres anything you’d like to see discussed email me: abhainn@pagansineire.com or leave a comment below.
I commented on Oibre-Mhor before about upcoming dates to watch for including Dean Wilson speaking at Feile Draíochta 2011 in October, as well as the launch of the website for the Dublin Temple of MOAA, and also left a note on the state of Occult Ireland and Pagans in Eire. (see three lines here took a whole post! lol).
Also what do you think of the new layout? Seems more accessible now to me?

Open to topic suggestions?

Hey folks,

I’m so sorry been off the blogosphere for so long. Life dramas and work committments. What I hope to do come Samhain (October) is begin a new series of writings for the Phases of the Moon and the Sabbats. I’m in final year of college so will be kept very busy but I hope that people will indulge me.
If theres anything you’d like to see discussed email me: abhainn@pagansineire.com or leave a comment below.
I commented on Oibre-Mhor about upcoming dates to watch for including Dean Wilson speaking at Feile Draíochta 2011 in October, as well as the launch of the website for the Dublin Temple of MOAA, and also left a note on the state of Occult Ireland and Pagans in Eire. (see three lines here took a whole post over there! lol)

On the subject of Initiation & Lineage

When comes to the issue of lineage and who initiated the first Witch I am reminded of the age old parable…
There once was a young man who feigned to study the mysteries of Life and the universe and his place therein. The endless questions of who he was and how should be act in accordance with the universe came in unending torrents and so he approached the Wise One of the community.
The Wise One was a person who had study Life’s deeper meanings and surely he should know the answers that plagued on the young man’s mind. As was the tradition of the time the young man simply couldn’t turn up on the Wise One’s door unannounced and certainly not without being appropriately cleansed and prepared for such wisdom to be bestowed upon him. So he journeyed out of the community and went down by the river to be cleansed by the river spirit that nourished the community. As he bathed in the cool spring waters he asked the river spirit, “O’ great spirit of the river why do you flow this way, so close to the community when you have so many other options?” And with this the river spirit responded: “Why did you build your community so close to me? What little choice I had was made long before you came here.”
Knowing better than to push his luck the young man journeyed onwards into the wild forest. A chill came over him as he approached the shadowy and imposing forest. He contemplated returning to the community, remembering his warm bed and how his family would soon be stirring, but instead with one mighty breath he drew in all the courage he could and stepped into the forest. It was often said that within the forests ancient spirits still slumbered and should remain so. The community had become frightened of the ancient forest spirits but the elders often spoke still of the ancient hunts and the prayers of thanks to those ancient spirits back when they cared more for human folk. The young man set about creating the space in which he would reside for the next few days. He was careful to select the best of everything that the forest offered him remembering that what the forest offered came from the ancient spirits that would come to help him on his journey.
For the most part it was cramped and uncomfortable on that first day and nothing really happened. So the young man vowed to stop his foolishness if by morning nothing further happened. As night crept in the young man heard a rustling sound. It was difficult to see even in the fireside but then as the bright slivery moon pierced through the trees, he was able to narrow his vision to witness a small mouse. Immediately reassured that he hadn’t journeyed ‘too’ deeply into the forest as to be eaten he then grew frustrated. After all this hard work and the forest spirits send a mouse! He rose up and went to throw dirt on the fire and return home when the mouse entered the space he’s made and began eating the food he’d brought as offering.
“Oi, stop that! That was for the animal spirit that the forest spirits were going to send me!”
“I know, thanks it tastes yummy and saves me scurrying all the way into the community to get food!” said the mouse enthusiastically. Lacking the spirit to argue, the young man asked the mouse “Why head into the community for food?”
“Well,” said the mouse, “you see I normally come into your house and eat food through the hole in the wall but I’ve more or less always been around you and so I guess what you really mean to ask me is why the ‘most ancient and venerable of forest spirits chose me?!” And the young man nodded…
“My message is: to start looking at all of those details in life and to to be alert to the things going on around you.” chirped the mouse.

So the young man returned to his community more baffled than when he left. Three days had now passed with his journey and the comments of the river spirit and the message the mouse had given him were far from answering his questions. Indeed they probably raise more, like what details was he missing and what was he missing that was happening all around him? When he reached the community he meandered through the streets for a bit before arriving at the Wise One’s place. The Wise One seemed to have been waiting for him at the door. It was still early morning and they young man and the Wise One sat down for some morning tea to discuss the young man’s journey.
The young man explained what the river spirit had said and what the mouse had said and the Wise One nodded along smiling knowingly. When he’d finished the Wise One proceeded to hmm and haw for some small time. Almost as if he wanted to be as enigmatic and aloof as could be. Then he proceeded to explain that he himself had proceeded to seek the same answers from the spirits and had dedicated the better part of his life to understanding Life. He’d spoken to the tree spirits, the river spirits, the sky spirits and the land spirits. All of whom had redirected him to another question. After years of noble pursuit the Wise One was left with one assumption, that Life was a lifetime’s endeavour. Sensing the young man’s reservation he pressed to know what it was that had pressed such growing concerns as to journey such an old and trodden path.
So the young man explained that he’d wanted to know who had initiated the first bum-fuck. Startled at the the openness of the young man’s statement and probably more than a little taken aback the Wise One took a few minutes again. The young man explained that since he’d often heard the Wise One state that he’d been trained and initiated by the the Wise One before him he’d wondered about other stuff too including men and women and then the young man explained that while he accepted men and women and didn’t mind it as a concept he knew it wasn’t for him. Now he’d wanted to know about men and men. It didn’t strike him as a path many would have wanted to travel especially THAT part of it since it was far messier than it’s hetero-counterpart (baring in mind this was in the days before enemas)! And since the elders always spoke of the magic of creation shouldn’t this count too as being very creative by design?! Luckily the Wise One, being as wise as he was, had an answer for everything even if it did take him a while to catch up. He said to the young man, “Does it really matter? We’re all Life’s bitches since Life initiates for all of us on a daily basis?”

Moral of the story is this… we may never know the reasons why everything is as it is. Sometimes the simplest of reasons in the answer we seek as in the case of the river spirit and the community selecting that spot. Other times we need to let go of our EGO and see our part in the story of creation a little better.

GayWitch.org

Just a quick post to let people know that the forums to GayWitch.org have been updated and can be accessed. The site is open to people around the world who are pagan and LGBTQ to help explore LGBT pagan spirituality.

Pagan Metal Gig – Dublin 29th Jan


The Craobh Rua (grove) lads are coming down from the Ulaid for a waylander gig in Fibber Maggees on January 29th. They are well worth checking out for a good dose of pagan music.

€10 at the door, doors around 8pm.

About the Band:
Formed in 1993, WAYLANDER released their debut demo, Once Upon An Era, in early 1995. Mixing Irish folk music with extreme Metal, Waylander
were soon dubbed Folk, Celtic and Pagan Metal. In 1996, with the addition of a full time tin-whistle player, Waylander released their 2nd demo, Dawning of a New Age, which soon gained Waylander a prominent position in the fledgling Folk Metal scene. This was cemented when Waylander signed to Century Media and in 1998, their debut album was released, entitled Reawakening Pride Once Lost. After overcoming some line-up changes, Waylander signed with Blackend Records and released their sophomore album, The Light, the Dark and the Endless Knot, in early 2001. In the last few years notable shows include Bloodstock Festival, Day of Darkness Festival and Ultima Ratio Festival, as well as gigs with Ancient Rites, Cathedral, Sabbat and Skyforger. Waylander’s debut album, Reawakening Pride Once Lost, has been re-released by Midhir Records on Cd and vinyl. The forthcoming new album, Honour Amongst Chaos, is due to be released in 2008. Current line up features original members ArdChieftain O’ Hagan [vox] Michael Proctor [bass], and Den Ferran [drums] in addition to Saul McMichael on guitars and Dave Briggs on all folk instruments.


NATAN are also playing and details can be found at their MySpace page: http://www.myspace.com/natanhorde

Also appearing on the night are BURIAL.


WOUND UPON WOUND.

The opening act are a pagan lads too so if youre knocking around town itd be good to have some people in to support them aswell.